So its starting to be crunch time for me. Next Monday, I enter a world where I don't belong nor want to be. Its dreadful feeling this way as I am, I've even managed to piss a close friend off purely because I can't control how I feel lately. Ack, this is an absolute disaster. Even though, in all honesty, all it would take is one phone call, for me to step up and tell my nan to fuck off. But I can't, she's the last remaining family member I have any connection to. Telling her to go to hell, she would and I don't want that on my concious.

I feel like shit, it shows probably. I guess its all down to me once again to ride through it and hopefully come out a better man at the end of it. When will it ever end. Anyway, enough with the depressive shit, the flats going aright, nearly there. Soon it'll be a lovely home and I can start my life again, for the third time. Maybe this time I'll meet the right people, be with the right crowds and get myself setup so I can finally shrug off the sad, lowlife I've been living for the last 22 years. Soon I'll be 23. Its just a number to me, after all, I feel far older than that. Its time to forget the past and move on. I just wish I had someone who'd take this path with me, the loneliness of the situation is constantly pressuring me to go out and do silly things, which always ends up in a giant drama heap with included nasty bitch fighting. Go me.

Hey, at least I got a new phone... :3 the lovely G2 on T-Mobile. Finally I can say goodbye to Vodafone, those shits have seen the last from me! Bah, BAH I SAY!

Don't know what else to say, apart from this; to those I piss off unintentionally, I'm sorry and for those I piss off on purpose, fuck you... If you can't decide which side of that you are, then talk to me, that's all anyone would ever have to do, talk to me. Perhaps people would take me seriously and understand that I don't say bullshit all the time.

Hugs 'n' Murrs
~Darkus